Run and run...

It may look like its all i do...but believe me, i never intended to...

Why do i even bother?

Why? I dont know...i tried and tried up to the point of giving up...WTF?

Show that u appreciate....Show that u care...Show that im being an idiot for trying....U know what...NO SUPRISE! Screw You!! Chhh...

Yea...i noticed the little things...

BTW....DONT ASK!

Happy 3 Month Anniversary...

Three months...This is the first time in my life that i view the number '3' as a huge number...cause well...its pretty much a milestone to me...haha...

Luv...how u put up with my behaviour for these past couple of month is beyond my understanding...i know that i havent been much of a boyfriend cause ive pretty much MIA for the past month...Sorry... =(

Anyways hopefully the future would be better and we'll have loads more happy, good, fantastic, awesome and fun times together... ;)

Oh yea...in case u didnt know already...

I Love You <3

Ratio 34:1

Today was my 1st Entrepreneurship class...Quite interesting i must say...

One of the issues discussed in the class was success and the things that comes with success...or rather what you lose to achieve success...

In order to become successful you have to be prepared to sacrifice certain things...the usual things that a normal person would think of would be sacrificing time and money...but there are also other things that one might have to sacrifice such as love and loved ones...

Then it struck me...even in relationships you have to prepare to sacrifice the same things...you have to be able to let go certain things in order to have a successful relationship...One must be able to give and take...be able to adapt oneself or maybe even change oneself to satisfy the significant other...is it worth it?

Yes...If you change for the better...

Frick...

I missed my window...my thinking place...

Now there's a table between me and my window...my bro's computer table...

But still...Its my usual inspiration place so i just sit on the table and look outside...feel the cool breeze wisp by against my face...

And out of no where a freekin creature scuttled on the roof in front of the window...stood in front of me...It was just one a half feet away...kinda looks like a ferret...in stayed for about 5 seconds and ran away...haha...

I better put away the biscuits on the table in case that thing decides to come again to find food...haha....

My Creative Process...

Its been a while since i made a song...Well a good song...haha...

My process of making a song...

1. Find a keyword/phrase that sums up the whole song...
2. Listen to music and try to pick out certain words that i could use (Some view this as cheating...haha...)
3. Think about what the song is about...(Haha... Yea...for most people, this should be the first step...)
4. Sit in front of the computer (at times for hours) figuring out rhymes and try to find a good rhythm for the song...type them out on MS Word...
5. Read it over and over again...and put it in my "Finished Work" file if im satisfied...if not ill put it in the "Unfinished Work" file...

So far i have 5 complete songs and 1 unfinished one...well actually 2 unfinished songs but i accidentally left the file in Brunei...haha...

Second Chance...

Do people really deserve a second chance?

Why give them a chance to break you down again?

Why give them a chance to repeat the same mistake again?

Why give them a chance to hurt you again?

Because they're worth it...

Peace and Serenity....

I was thinking about what to name this post and well, that came out of nowhere...so...heh...haha...

I probly should stop ending every sentence with "..." ...haha...oh well...lets move on to the next agenda...

I dont know what to write now i have a chance to... =_=" ...oh Yea...how bout i just complain about some stuff here? haha...

Let start with...the end of my semester break...*sigh*...Its been fun...lets do a quick recap..This is the first holiday where i actually went somewhere outside of SEA...YaY...hahaha...Probably the last time i get to see my friends in a really long time...cause most of them are gonna go study overseas soon...might not be able to see them durin raya this year... :( ...what else? Apa lagi ahh... Hmmm....i dont know...

Haha...just kidding... =p ....probly the most important part is finally being able to meet Icha... ;)

My god i miss that girl like crazy right now...and i only had time to meet her 3 times(well 4 if you consider a 2 minute meeting actually meeting someone...haha...) ...I actually asked my mum to book my flight late (Flight is on the 6th which is actually the day my classes start...haha...) cause i thought..."Hmm...if i go back late...it mean more time for me to hang out with Icha...." *Grins to Self* ...but fate is being an ass and she's now havin a jolly good time in England while im here...in Brunei..."THE CAPITAL OF FUN!!"....Yes...that is sarcasm ppl... =_=

Talkin about fate being an ass...did i mention that Im changing campuses? Yea...WTF? I was just getting used to Shah Alam and now theyre transfering me to Petaling Jaya??? Gah...u know what that means? I have to live in a hostel again without proper/no internet connection...Which means minimum contact with Icha... *Grits teeth*...Well for now...My mum said she's gonna buy me a car so theres still hope cause if i have a car then i could still live in Shah Alam and just drive to PJ for my classes...so please fate? Be nice to me and make me happy....pleaseeeee.... =D

Just 2 more days here...damn...im gonna miss this place and the people here... =/

Jobless much...

Jobless...such a meaningful word...well not really...haha...

If you want me to simplify my whole semester break...it would be that exact word... "JOBLESS"...

Well not the whole time...just...most of the time? Haha...

What the heck am i rambling about?

Its 2.42am...and i dont know why im still waiting...I might as well just go to sleep...

No...i wanna chat with my luv...come online...pretty please? /shyshy

Why do i feel so empty? =_=

Now i feel like rambling in Malay...

Nah....maybe not...

Feel the Muzic: All I Have

All I Have - J. Lo feat. LL Cool J

Well i was driving my lil bro and sis to school and this song played on the radio...Its been a while since ive listened this song...so have a listen and reminisce a bit... =)

Ak mmg x leh bla...

Mcm2...ak x paham btul lah...ape ape ape?

ntah...

Delete lah...mcm ak kisah sgt...

1+2=3

hualomotalagopalalayoooooooooooo....HAHAHAHAHAHA....

jobless gle ak ni...

ak ak ak...

ko ko ko...

take this and point at it...it will lead u to nowhere..

Am i moving too fast? VROOOOM!!!

besusah payah ak pikir psl bende tu ko ckp ape? ceh...

smpai blo la ni...

ak x leh bla...ko pn sme...kjp wawowu...jd org pn wawowu...pastu tetiba skrg wawowu mcm xde makne...ye la ye la...blablablablabla

(No worries...i dont get what im trying to say either... =p)

Off on a plane soon...

Yay...comin back to Brunei...Meet my family...friends...and hopefully some surprises will happen soon... ;)

I have a few minutes to burn...so what to talk about...how about beauty? Haha...

Kinda random i know...

But nowadays people are always worried about...well whether they are pretty/beautiful/hot/handsome enough...

But is it really important though?

Cause beauty does not last forever...Personality does...

People always compare themselves to somebody who they think is prettier...seriously? Come on people...

Look at me...Im not the handsomest guy around but im comfortable with how i look...haha...

Just be yourself and people will love u for it... =)

Gone for a few days...

Yup...for the next few days it would be just me and three dudes cruising along the east coast in a small car...Going to Terengganu...my dad's hometown + My friend's home too...

Its gonna be fun i bet but you know something is always missing...her...

I mean...ntah...i don't know what i mean actually...haha...

Another three days of no onlining...another 3 straight days of not chatting with her...another 3 days of wondering...is she ok? What is she doing right now? Does she miss me? Probably not...haha...

Kinda stereotypical i know...but hey...stereotypes are a huge part of my life...cause my life is nothing but a drama waiting to be turned into the next big hit in daytime television...as Wafi would put it...ahaha...

So what now? Should i disturb her by calling or messaging her while im away? But u know...my mum always said its not nice to disturb people... =____=

Say it too much and you take it for granted...say it too little and you say I don't care...

Love seems to be THE topic nowadays...

Some people say that its not in their dictionary...

But we all know that's not true...

Haha...I'm such a romantic-less loser...

What is this so called "being romantic"?

Giving a rose? A box of chocolates? A candle light dinner? Watching the sunset?

That's all just some image people make...

So do i have to follow that "image"?

Do i have to follow other people?

Some might think so...but what is the point really? What ever happened to expressing everything in your own way? Isn't individuality that makes something special?

Love is not about finding similarities...its about respecting each others differences...

So tell me...What do i have to do to be romantic?

A damn buzy weekend...

This weekend I was buzy as hell...

Here's a breakdown of what happened...

Saturday: I woke up at about 9ish...Not long after my friend called...asking me whether we are going to go to the faculty to study for my calculus paper...knowing that if i didnt, i would most probably fail and cant continue on with my course so i said yes...if i just stayed at home i would not study much and would most probably wait for my luv to post something on her FB for me to comment on...haha..

So studied with him till about 4pm and we took a break...i went to my friends room at his hostel to take a short nap...about 9pm i met up with the guy again and this time studied with a few other dudes from my class...this went on till about 12am...then...we went out...haha...

Well not for long...just for me to get some food...(didnt get to eat dinner)...went back to the hostel...studied a bit more but then my head felt like it was about to explode! So we decided to stop for now...My friend played some tunes using his friends guitar and we went to sleep...this was about 2-3am...

Sunday: FINAL EXAM DAY!! Kinda stressed a bit but i keep on saying to myself...I can do it...i can do it!! And suprisingly yea...i can do it...i think...haha...well the exam was kinda way easier compared to the old calculus exams i took so hopefully i passed... =D

After the exams went to eat with my study buddy and a few friends of his...then my cousin contacted me the next day...asking if i could help out recording a launching of some sort at a Malaysian national service camp...and of course i had to say yes...in the family i am kinda the only person who knows how to record and use a handycam decently...hehe...

My study buddy sent me home and i had to rush, pack my things and go catch a bus to KL...i wanted to check FB but then my bro whom i asked to send me to the bus stop asked me to hurry up cause he has to go somewhere after that...so i went off without checkin FB... =(

Kinda lucky i didnt ask him to wait up for a bit cause if i arrived 5 mins later the bus would have gone without me...so basically bus then took a train to the Wangsa Maju station...my cousin picked me up there and we went to her house...

Met up with my other cousins and my aunt n uncle...rested for a bit and we went out to eat...Arabian food...YUM....

After that went back home and finally i get to check FB! but the internet was painfully slow and the laptop hanged a lot... =___=" ...i was hoping that i would get to chat with my luv but then the MSN on the thing didnt work and there was also the computer hanging a lot...so i could only comment on some stuff on her FB...*sigh*...then off to slumberland...

Monday: Woke up and off to the camp...

It was kinda fun...but the handycam rosak and it keeps on saying disk error... =___=" ...and i was there for the whole day...damn it was tiring...

But yea...in the end i got a free cap and a few gifts...=D

And another thing...My luv's sis msged me usin my luv's phone...haha...as much as i want to play sms-ing i was busy then so i had to cut the sms-ing short...

Went back to my cousins house...basically did nothing the whole night...i wanted to call my luv but then i checked my credit... Rm1.01 ...damn...not enough....

Then out of the blue my luv msged me.. =D ...I used my other phone to msg her back but she didnt reply...i thought the sms didnt reach her so i persuaded my cuz to bring me to the nearest shop to get some credit...so i topped up my phone and sms-ed her again...but she didnt reply...so i guess she was sleeping...so no phone call...*sigh*

Tuesday: Ate breakfast and my cuzzins and aunt sent me back home...and now im here writing this post...haha...

Im still tired from yesterdays works but it was worth it...got some cash for it...hehe...and it was a new experience for me... (Y)

Never smart or cool, or pretty enough...

Its 8.45pm...Halfway through watching an episode of Fringe...

Then i dont know...I just felt like going to my thinking place and listening to some JoJo songs...

It started with Too Little Too Late...after that Never Say Goodbye played...

Its been a while since i heard the song...

One of my favourite songs out of the first JoJo album...

Was listening to This Time just now...But i switched it to Fairy Tales...Arguably the best song out of the first album...well to me at least...

Give me a few minutes to listen to the song...

"Cant you tell me what love is all about?"
"That's why i don't believe in Fairy tales"
"There's no such thing as Fairly Tales"

Is there really no such thing as fairy tales in real life? I had always believed that one day i would have a fairy tale story of my own...Will this be the Fairy tale im looking for this time? Only time will tell...

Almost nine o'clock now...Must be something wrong with me...I feel so empty...

I turned on Exceptional...

Thinking right now...would you sing me this song one day?

Just changed the title of this blog from "Never Say Goodbye to part of the Exceptional lyrics...

I turned on Weak...

Put on my headphones...was listening using speakers right now...

Heard a few ambiguous sounds downstairs...Im supposed to be alone in my house right now...But too lazy to check...

Ok fine ill check...

Everything seems to be the same...Still just me alone...

"No way i can deny it, your love so sweet...it knocks me off my feet..."
"I swallow my pride...Your love is so sweet.."
"In a daze, your love is so amazing, its not a phase...I want you to stay with me, by my side..."

Keep on Keepin' On is playing...

Why am i typing all of this down? Who knows? Filling in this empty feeling i guess...

I'm going to stay at my uncles house tonight...he went to Indonesia with his wife...so wanted me and my bro to take care of children for a bit...

My love is online...said "ellow..."

Cant i say anything better?

Damn...i felt my heart jumped...the empty feeling is starting to disappear...

Im gonna chat with my love now...till next time...

No colours this time...some things are better as they are... ;)

A fantasy in reality i may be...so will u accept me if you see me as me?

The sun sets in the distant horizon...the time? I don't care right now...

The only thing that appears in this dark abyss i call my mind is the person who captured my heart...my soul...the person who seems to be perfect in the most imperfect ways...the person who's voice is sweet and gentle...

She's cute whenever she wants to be...she's hot whenever she wants to be...she's crazy whenever she wants to be...she's romantic whenever she wants to be...and she's everything to me...

Yes...its true...I do at times think that I'm not good enough for her...I mean who wouldn't think that? Me? An un-athletic hormonal teenage emo boy with pimples and a tooth missing...ok i may be getting a bit too carried away here...but still i wouldn't be me if i didnt think that...

Someone once said: Never make promises you can't keep...

Its true i cannot promise that we will have a happy life together one day...we will always be there for each other...but i can tell u this...

Everyday i pray that we will have a happy life together one day...we will always be there for each other...that you and I are happy together even when we are worlds apart for now...that one day we would meet and the love we have will stay...that we will still be in love even when the earth stops spinning and the sun sheds its final light...

Only three words left to say and i mean it with all my heart... I love you...

To a needy child =p

This is especially for Miss SARAH MST...

"I" (the I has quotation marks...Hint hint) would like to say : SPEEEECIAL THANKS TO SARAH MST FOR HER WARM HUGS.

A present for u...haha...me givin u a present on MY BIRTHDAY! =P

Birthday...

Time: 6.05pm

What i should be doing: Studying

What i just did: Go to my thinking place a.k.a Window...

Its my birthday today...Wooo~ the big 18...also known as the legal age to do...ummm...legal things? Haha...

First person to wish me...Azim Pg. Chuchu...childhood friend...he wished me a happy birthday even before it is my birthday...haha... thanx bro... =D

Person who wished me birthday most number of times... Batrisyia...Once thru a comment in FB...then a msg to my phone...and then a status msg in FB...Haha...thanx a lot luv... *hugs* ;)

What i did before 12.00am...Chatted with Ayla for the first time...(Y)...Actually i was supposed to go studying with my bro and his friends...and get a nice little treat from my bro's friends after that...Haha...but ah well...decided to submerge myself in the virtual realm for the night...talk/chat Ayla who was having some problems, tried to help with the situation and had a bit of fun here and there...Hope everything goes well for u... =) ...and u better be grateful...i missed a treat for u... =p

What else happened? Had quite a few bday wishes from a few ppl... (Thanx =D)...my cuzs called me at exactly 12.00 to wish me bday...(Thanx Ina n Rara =) )...Yesh (2nd bro) gave me a box with 8 small bottles of perfumes in it...haha...That's basically the only present i got...*sob sob*....Hahahaha....what else? Ummm...went for chendol with my friend and a few of his friends (he didn't know it was my bday today i think...he didnt say anything... =p)...and that's basically it...Very eventful day, no?

And this is the 2nd time i get no birthday cake...I want cake!! Haha...wanted to buy a slice at Secret Recipe but then that would just be sad i think...haha...

Oh yea...And i got divorced today...again...well at least it lasted more than 30mins... XP

Too much sleeping...

Time: 5.56pm...

What i did before: Watched 2 and a half men...

What i should be doing: STUDYING!

These past 3-4 days something weird has been happening...Ive been sleeping a lot...and when i say a lot i mean sleep at night...sleep in the afternoon and at times sleep in the late morning...so a total of about 12-14 HOURS of sleep a day... =_____=

Its not really intentional...i mean...i do open my eyes everyday at about 9-10am but then somehow i just keep on lying down, closed my eyes and poof! Im back in slumberland...

And the thing is...i usually sleep at about 12-1am....so waking at say 9 would mean that i would already have a total of 8-9 hours of good sleep...and that is wayyy more than what i usually get...which is about 5-6 hours of sleep a day...

Why damn it why?

I would like to call it mental exhaustion but lets face it...I have not been studying as much as i should... =(

Feeling "Blah.."

As i type this, it is now...8.55pm...according to my trusty clock at the bottom right hand side of my screen...

What i should be doing right now? Studying of course...next Monday would be my 1st exam...*sigh*

But...as u can see im not in the mood...

Why? I don't know...i guess its cause "someone" is not online...(i sound pathetic)

But i don't blame her...she got stuff to do and i got mine...but i don't know...if i don't her online i would just feel..."blah"...Haha...

I keep on telling myself everyday that the next day i would wake up early...open my books...and study till late in the evening...but up till now...its still not happening...

I need some motivation people...HELP!!

P.S. I just realised...Colour on certain words does help express what your saying more... =P

NEW LAYOUT!!!

I was bored so i searched around for a new template...Actually im not loving the look of it right now...haha...I just like it cause it has 3 columns and looks more organized...(Man i sound like a geek)...

Owh Yea...Look carefully at the star up there...its actually sparkling... >.<

It's been a while...

It had been almost...2 months since my last post...haha...Yea well i know that i said i'll update at least once a week but...couldn't be bothered to...haha...cause i've been buzy with studies and stuff...(Yea right... =p)

The reason for this update is cause of sheer fear of my luvly wife and lover Batrisyia smacking me in the ass in a non-cute way...xp

This blog was originally to write "as much crap possible bout my messed up love life"...(Haha...quoting myself...=p)...but then screw that...haha...Now its dedicated to all the randomness in my life...(Y)

As proof...I've changed the look of the blog from the somber black to my favourite colour...=D

Actually i wanted a cooler looking blog but then...i don't know how to use custom templates and stuff...haha...

I did think about changing the blog address...but "another shot to the heart" still sounds wicked... =P

Now to answer the question of "have i gotten over her"...I went to my favourite place...(The window in my room =P)...and thought about it...Now this was about 10 mins before 7am...it was still quite dark...i breathed in the cool air...

To me...yea...i have gotten over her...If you have read all my previous posts, all the "She left me...i didnt know...im lovesick...heartbroken..." then u must think "Reaaaallly? ^o)" ...and the answer is still a definite YES! Haha...

I read back all of my old posts (to proof to myself really) that i am over her...and guess what i did when i read all of it...i laughed...hard and loud...XD

My god...Its amazing how emotional a guy could get...well a guy like me anyways...haha...Below are some of the stuff ive said over the course of "recovery from heartbrokenness"... =p

Seriously...two months with me...well for the first month ive been comforting you while the other being your bf...U SERIOUSLY STILL CAN'T FORGET BOUT THE GUY??!! (A very very dumb statement now i think about it...haha)

The longer this "fight" lasts...the more i believe in this... (But the fight never ends...so the believe went away...haha)

OK :-) Im actually confused between fantasy and reality (A very very true statement... XD)

And a special thanks to BATRISYIA n FALY cause you guys been reading my blog from a start =) (And also Sarah and Wafi and people who had been there...Without you guys...I might still be posting lovesick crap on this blog... =D)

haha...my eye is twitching... haha...n down goes one tear.... And down goes another tear....(This is what i call...over dramatic writing XD)

I could always delete my fs, delete all of her pics, delete this blog even, like what she is doing...which to me really is kind of childish...(And i still think the same...haha..)

Just cause you have a bad experience, it doesn't mean that you have to erase it. Why? Cause by doing that, you will never learn anything. You would just make the same mistakes again and again...(And also think the same about this...haha..)

Cause this is getting wayyy to sad...even for a...wait for it.... SHEMO (Sarcastic Happy EMO) like me... XD (Now a new definition of SHEMO exists...Its Super Hot EMO... XD)

New PC =D

Sorry but haven't been able to post stuff here cause my lappy was having problems...well still have problems but at least it can be turned on...umm...ok ill start from the beginning... =D

The actual problem was that my lappy screen would just turn off or it completely freezes after turning it on for a few minutes...cause of the stupid defective display chip(apparently all laptops the same model as mine (HP DV2500...DON'T BUY IT PEOPLE!! ) will sooner or later have the same problem)...Well sent it to the shop for repairs and guess what...the technician said that the laptop can be repaired but you can only turn it on 2 hours at a time or else the same problem will happen again...and the repairs would cost Rm350...so i was like -____-" ...cause how the hell am i gonna do "work" like that...at that time in my head i kept on thinking "Dammit...my good luck is all out for this year.."

But then...my bro told me to call my dad and ask him for a new PC...at first i have doubts that he would agree to buy me another computer but after the call he said yes... HAHA =D

Well at first my dad wanted to buy me a crappy Dell laptop but i conviced him to give me Rm2000 for a new custom PC...At first wanted to buy different PC parts and assemble it myself but then my bro offered to sell his for about Rm1350(he spent about Rm1900 on it) cause he was broke... XP ...and its only been used for less than a month so... SCORE!! =D

The rest of the money i used for a new 22 inch LCD screen, adaptor, wires and a nice set of sony headphones... =D

My new 22 inch beauty XD



My new PC front view...not that pretty but good enough.. =D


One of the best thing about this PC is that it has a side window and can see all of its "insides" ... XP

Lappy Problems...

Well when a hell load of good luck comes...of course bad luck is not far behind...haha...

Come on...we cant expect to have good luck all the time... =P

And bad luck came in the form of annoying the hell out of me by making me unable to use my lappy ...It keeps on randomly freezing...and really overheating....Im pretty sure u can cook an egg on my lappy...or even beef bacon... XD

Well it still freezes but less now...been uninstalling a hell load of unused software and im downloading the latest drivers for my graphic card right now and also updated my BIOS (which in normal people language means clicking a lot of different things to make laptop go faster and work better... =P)

And also ive "installed" some new "cooling devices"...


I call this "AsH Lappy Cooler Version 6.0" ....See The big white thing...Its basically 3 pieces of tissue paper soaked in water...and the three smaller ones...cotton pads soaked in water...haha...I use this whever the laptop gets so hot that it shuts down by itself...


And this one "Ash Lappy Cooler Version 3"...Basically the same three piece tissue soaked in water but i put it at the bottom left side of my lappy...This i use whenever the laptop is on...like right now...it actually helps a lot cause most of the heat is emitted from there...for some unknown reason...keeps it reasonably cool...but i have to keeps rewetting the thing from time to time cause it dries out quite fast...Quite annoying to repeat the thing from time to time but its better then letting my lappy overheating and freezing up...haha..

And this is my latest experiment...its my laptop cooler which i modified myself...changed the fan's position from the centre to the bottom left side...which as i said before where most heat comes from...but doesn't seem to work as well as i hoped though...

1901 Galore!!!

Like ive said before, this year has been quite good for me... Today my bro asked if i was hungry, and even thought i wasn't really hungry, i still said yes...So my bro brought me to 1901 hotdogs at a Petronas Station...and guess what?

Today is the 19th right so they have this special promotion...only $1.99 per hotdog...my bro and didn't know that there was a promotion going on so both of us went "YES!!!"...Woohooo...Lucky day!...went to queue and when it was my turn...i said "10 hotdogs please"...the person taking the order went =O ....Hahaha...my bro and i was laughed and said we were serious....

Took bout 10 mins for them to get the hotdogs ready..

We actually just ate 1 hotdog each there and went home after that...haha...

When we reached home decided to give our housemates a hotdog each...so 3 was left...My bro ate one and i ate the other two... =D

So yea..happy day for me! Again... =D

Necklace Update! XD

Haha...well the black plasticy thingy is finally off...And i was right...it does look cooler without it... d(0_0d)

Silver is more of my colour anyways...haha...Double meaning to that... =D

Feel the Muzic: Savior

This is my favourite song out of the new Rise Against album...the album is really good...called Appeal To Reason..Have a listen if your into semi-heavy rock =D

BTW if you've been reading my blog all this time...You should know what the colours on the lyrics mean... =P

Read the whole way through the lyrics yea ... =D




Savior

It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten
what the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got them
as the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping
through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten

there is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
and there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
but seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear
so tell me now
if this ain't love then how do we get out?
because I don't know
that's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
that's when I told her I love you girl
but I'm not the answer to the questions that you still have

but the day pressed on like crushing weights
for no man does it ever wait
like memories of dying days
that deafen us like hurricanes
bathed in flames we held the brand
uncurled the fingers in your hand
pressed into the flesh like sand
now do you understand?
so tell me now
if this ain't love then how do we get out?
because I don't know
that' s when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
that's when I told her I love you girl
but I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have

one thousand miles away
there's nothing left to say
but so much left that I don't know
we never had a choice
this world is too much noise
it takes me under
it takes me under once again

I don't hate you
I don't hate you
so tell me now
if this ain't love then how do we get out?
because I don't know
that's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
that's when I told her I love you girl
but I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
I don't hate you
I don't hate you, no

Dang...

It's not that clear but that is my dolphin necklace and the black plastic thingy is startin to peel off... =(

Guess ive been wearing it too much...haha... =D

Might just peel off the thing soon...but without the black background...it kinda looks cooler.. =P

Weird but a nice moment...

Yesterday i was waiting at the bus stop like usual....waiting for the bus from Uni to go home...But yesterday was not like any usual day cause of a little thing that happened on that bus stop...

Well the bus stopped and i was about get on the bus... Took out my wallet and took out RM1...when i was about to go on there was a tap on my shoulder...it was the girl who was sitting beside me while i was waiting for the bus...and she suddenly handed me her bus ticket..In my head i was like "Wow"...so i smiled and said thanks while she went back to sit....

So basically i got a free ride home that day...well the ticket is only Rm1...but it was nice of her to give me her ticket... =) ...not sure if she wanted something back tho... =P

Washing my clothes...

...cause i was running out of shirts to wear...haha...

What's amazing is that i have a heck load of red shirts...and white...well me n my 1st bro...we're the same size so basically we share clothes...haha...

N guess what shirt is down there...look closely...


Its a shirt completely covered in MOULD!! HAHA XD

Its my shirt but before you say "EWWWHHH...ur disgusting Far!!" (XP) ....i havent worn that shirt for like 6 months...and the last person who wore it was my bro...and it was in my bro's closet when i found it....haha...

I threw it away btw...who the hell would want to keep it anyways? Haha... =P

Feel the Muzic: Wrong Number

Ok...This is one of the things that i would never expect...Liking another DBSK song... =P

The first was Balloons...and liked it cause its like...the happiest song ever made!! XD And if lifts my mood up when im down... =)

Now this...

After some nagging from another DBSK maniac (=P) i watched the vid...and i have to say....its quite good actualy...Haha... I dont really like DBSK before cause they're too "pop-ish" for my taste but wrong number is different...it has a really sweet hip-hop beat to it...which is more to my liking =D ...Plus the message in the song kind of relates to someone in my family... =/

The Year So Far...

...is going really well for me... =D ...Every single day something positive happens...For example...

The first day of the year i went fishing, caught 2 fishies and at night someone donated a generous amount of $$ to me... =P

Second day...got a new pair of jeans, my mum gave me some more $$ and in my flight i get to hang with an old friend of mine that i haven't seen for ages... =D

Third day...got the chance to eat a decent McD Big Mac after soooo long (McD in Brunei...not so good.. =P )...hanged with Wafi in KL and he treated me to Burger King... =D ...and got myself a wicked pair of new Sony earphones... =D

And good things happens the next day and the next...

And yesterday...the girls in my class heard that i wanted to change University and didn't want me to change..and they even offered to help in anything anytime basically of I stay on... XP

So yea...a good year so far...and hoping that my good luck streak goes on till the end of the year... =)

Flying Away....

...to KL in about 5 hours...huhu! =(

Im gonna miss this place called Brunei..as boring and dull as it may seem at times.. XP

Oh yea...since im going back I'm not sure if i can update this blog as much (well depends on where i stay actually) but my promise is that i'll update at least once a week...with a hell load of new posts if it is once a week... =)

And if i don't keep that promise...you can smack me on the ass( O.0 Kinky....)
XD

For some reason i feel like putting this song... XP ....Its a nice acoustic song with a DEEP MEANING so have fun... =D

It Ends - Faber Drive


So clear silver moon
Wind moves through my room
Memories of Saturday (memories of Saturday)
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when she said
She's going away
Going away
I need to know this

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I tried I tried
Is this the way
Is this the way it ends?

Dark echo's inside
Can't sleep through the night
All the words I heard you say (memories of Saturday)
Fade of the yard
Lay under the stars
Stuck down in this place
Hands on my face
I need to know this

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I tried I tried
Is this the way
Is this the way it ends

Get up chase the vision
Stand up watch the world go by
Aha Aha
You found
Feel the reason
Black clouds are filling up my sky
Aha Aha

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I tried I tried
Is this the way
Is this the way it ends?

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I tried I tried
Is this the way
Is this the way it ends?

The Day of the New Year

Was a real blast... =D

Went fishing for the first time with my dad's colleagues(Dr. Asmah)'s family...Well i went fishing with her husband while she went swimming with her daughter and my lil bro and sis...It was at Pantai Muara...

For the first time i realised...FISHING IS FUN!!! XD

Time actually passes by quickly when your fishing....

And of course the best part is the thrill of actually catching the fish...and i caught TWO!!! =D

While the Dr's husband didn't catch one.... XP

Yea i know...Beginner's luck... =P

My first catch =D


My second catch =D

That slipper is a size 9 btw...which 2 me means...The fishes were BIG!! =D

Owh yea...and this is what happens when you fish for 4 hours under the sun without any sunscreen...

Haha...i got tanned...

Note to self: WEAR SUNSCREEN!! XP

HAPPY NEW YEARS PEOPLE =)

Hey hey...its finally a new year...again...Haha...

08 seriously just passed by...like a gentle wind...soft and subtle, yet swiftly... XD

Most of 08 is a blur to me really... XP

Wonder what i did on the special moment when the clock strikes 12.00am to mark the start of the new year?

SLEEPING!!! XD

Well not intentionaly...Haha...I was sooo damn tired yesterday cause i had to wake up at like 7.30am yesterday to send me daddy to the Sports Centre in Berakas for his leg treatment (He tore his ankle tendon like 2 months ago now)...and after that at like 11.00am i went out with my friends for a movie... =D ...Came back home at about 5.00pm but for some reason i had an urge to watch Gokusen (The Japanese Drama) till bout 10.30pm...Haha..

After 10.30pm till like 4.30am i was like sleeping...Surprisingly...Cause i usually have this off button inside of me that can only be switched on after 1am...Haha...But i did set an alarm to ring at 11pm but guess i subconciously turned the alarm off... XD

And guess what's the first thing i did in the new year(other than sleeping)?

Continue watching Gokusen!! HAHAHA! XP

I was actually planning going online at 12 to say new years to whoever(like me) that has nothing to do for new years =P

But oh well...Haha... =D

So anyways *Insert name here*....HAPPY NEW YEARS AND MAY THINGS TURN OUT WELL FOR YA! =D